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Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
10:04 pm
A little closer...
Today I turned in my last bit of homework and my last final ever. I will never have to sit in a traditional class again (of course, there will be continuing education and, if psychologists get prescription privileges, maybe more, but probably not). It's very strange, and I feel it should come with more fanfare than "Ok, then." But the path to being done is still pretty long, so I'll just keep truckin'.

Current Mood: blank
Sunday, April 20th, 2008
11:40 pm
A rant. Please ignore if you wish.
I'm upset about something that happened recently. hiromasaki went tux shopping with his groomsmen. Beforehand, we'd talked about what the tuxes might look like and I told him whatever he wanted to do was fine.

Not only did his groomsmen not listen to HIM when he said that this was our agreement, they called me because some assumed that I would not be happy with whatever he chose. First of all, I am not a bridezilla. In fact, I've worked very hard not to be, and while I have my moments of "I really have my heart set on having this a particular way," I have far more moments of hiromasaki and I deciding together (though this may require multiple phone calls during a time he is spending with his friends because it really couldn't wait), and hiromasaki deciding by himself. Planning a big wedding in the midst of practica, work, work, work, homework, dissertarion work, and school is stressful enough without anyone making it more difficult.

Second of all, I am tired of people assuming that I am out to run hiromasaki's life, take over, or remove him from any of the things he wants to do. Just because people's previous relationships have been like that does not mean ours is.

I love hiromasaki very much. He handles my neuroses, pushes me to be a better, stronger person, and never doubts my love for him. I am lucky to be marrying him and I know it. I work hard to be a good fiance, supporting him as best I can while being honest and pushing him to be a better person, too, however he should choose to do so. We are only starting a long life together, and there are tons of ways in which we will both learn how to better be together--it's a learning process.

I am a little angry and hurt because people I thought knew me clearly don't know me as well as I thought. So how about you shut your yaps when you don't know what the hell you're talking about.

Current Mood: sad
Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
11:30 pm
Just because I haven't posted in a while






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Current Mood: silly
Monday, February 25th, 2008
11:40 am
So you want to be an intern...
Well, I have an internship. What that means now is that starting July 1 I will be meagerly paid for working my butt off for 1 year. Then I will be that much closer to being DONE. Just dissertation after that. I think I can see some sort of bright shining thing in the darkness...

Current Mood: anxious
Monday, February 18th, 2008
10:06 pm
Need advice...
I'll be driving back to Minnesota next month solo. When I drove here when I moved, I listened to David Sedaris audio CDs. I found it to be a great way to pass the time and keep me alert and awake. So, does anyone have suggestions on audiobooks I could get to listen to on the LONG drive?

Current Mood: tired
10:59 am
A special message
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Schmoopy!!!!

Current Mood: tired
Monday, February 11th, 2008
11:01 am
In the spirit of Valentine's day mushiness
"Longer" by Dan Fogelberg

Longer than thereve been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than thereve been stars up in the heavens
Ive been in love with you.

Stronger than any mountain cathedral
Truer than any tree ever grew
Deeper than any forest primeval
I am in love with you.

Ill bring fires in the winters
Youll send showers in the springs
Well fly through the falls and summers
With love on our wings.

Through the years as the fire starts to mellow
Burning lines in the book of our lives
Though the binding cracks and the pages start to yellow
Ill be in love with you.

Longer than thereve been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than thereve been stars up in the heavens
Ive been in love with you
I am in love with you..

Current Mood: loved
Friday, February 1st, 2008
10:26 pm
I hate...
...when I am a cranky bitch.

Current Mood: grumpy
Friday, December 14th, 2007
4:31 pm
I am so tired of this...
This is one of many times that I've had to submit paper applications to display my self-worth for people who then determine if I'm good enough to come and do something. Like, go to Grad school. Or work for free. And now I'm trying to get an internship, and it's the same bag all over again. There were about 850 applicants last year who did not get internships, and about 3,700 who did. I don't like those odds.

It makes me want to puke. It's not like I'm not qualified, but I don't have tons of clinical hours (though I will after this year!) and I'm tired to being judged based on a paper application. Because if I don't get one this year, I have to do it all again. :-(

Current Mood: crappy
Thursday, November 15th, 2007
9:37 pm
Me too!
100%ALCOHOLIC

Current Mood: silly
Thursday, November 8th, 2007
8:57 am

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Current Mood: silly
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
6:25 pm
lolcat Devon


Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
10:34 pm
Long time...
Life is insanely busy, as always.  Took Chad to Luther this past weekend, and he loved it, as I hoped he would.  I am exhausted from the trip and realize all over again how lucky I am to have had the experience I did at Luther...and I miss it all over again.   More photos available  here.



PS...this bell hung in a three separate buildings....that all burned down.  So, now it is in the middle of campus, where it has not so far burned anything down.  Ah, superstition and its place on a Christian campus.

Current Mood: tired
Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007
5:52 pm
A pathetic showing on a reading meme
These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing's users (as of today). As usual, bold what you have read, italicize those you started but couldn't finish, and strike through what you couldn't stand. Add an asterisk to those you've read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude

Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
A Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel: the fates of human societies
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler's Wife
The Iliad
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations
American Gods
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books
Memoirs of a Geisha
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian : a novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
The Fountainhead
Foucault's Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible : a novel
1984
Angels & Demons

The Inferno
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D'Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver's Travels
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela's Ashes : A Memoir
The God of Small Things
A People's History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse-Five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon
Oryx and Crake : a novel
Collapse : How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye

On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an Inquiry into Values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity's Rainbow
The Hobbit
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
The Three Musketeers

Current Mood: embarrassed
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
10:59 pm
A thought
Does anyone ever wonder if the reason you feel like crap is because you never return chain e-mails/bulletin posts?

Current Mood: contemplative
Saturday, September 15th, 2007
12:45 am
Ani DiFranco
I just got back from my first ever Ani DiFranco concert, despite the fact that I've been a fan for 5 years.  The woman is a tiny powerhouse!  She is about 5 feet tall and has just as huge of a voice in concert as on her album.  It was a great show, and if it weren't almost 1 AM, I'd give more of a review.  If you like Ani or any other sort of angry chick rock, hers is a show I reccommend!

Current Mood: bouncy
Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
4:11 pm
I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just a happy note to let everyone know that I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Current Mood: giddy
Monday, September 10th, 2007
4:34 pm
On a less cranky note...
The book chapter that my advisor and I wrote is  coming out in its book in December.  You can even preorder it on Amazon!  Fancy-pants!

Current Mood: cheerful
12:08 pm
I thought the crankiness was OVER when comps was...
...but I guess not.  I still find myself on edge, sometimes near-tears.  I have begun to think very seriously about my future (or, more appropriately, OUR future)--including future living arrangements, jobs, kids, etc.  Of course, this all hinges on whether or not I pass comps (I find out Wednesday)...which adds another layer of difficulty.  

I am a planner.  I always have been.  You'd be surprised--for every plan I have, I usually have 2-3 additional contingency plans for if plan A does not work out.  This is a good thing, in some respects--I rarely have to freak out at the last moment because I don't know what I'm going to do.  However, usually those plans get thrown all to hell pretty quickly if something goes wrong that I wasn't prepared for.  This creates an even larger freak out when those plans fall apart. 

I think I've written about this before...that I never planned on meeting and falling in love with someone in Ohio. Or rather, I never planned on meeting "the one."  While I can't imagine my life any differently now, it's thrown a major wrench in my plans.  I had always planned on moving back to MN, most likely beginning with my internship.  Now I have a whole other person, a house, and an additional family to plan for.  Mother fucking wrenches.  So at this point, as I try and make plans for the near and far futures, I find it very difficult.  I want decisions to be made together, which creates more problems when your partner isn't nearly the planner you are.  

I don't know what to do about it so far, I'm just trying to deal and not worry too much until I find out about comps--which could alter every plan I've considered so far.  People wonder why I am where I am in my life?  It's because of my plans.  Don't knock it--it's gotten me pretty far.    

Current Mood: contemplative
Monday, August 27th, 2007
6:31 pm
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